hurm, bukan nak hujahkan sal judge2 yg arif lagi bijak sana di negara Malaysia tanah air ku nih, aku nak ulaskan, tentang, HOW PPL JUDGE US..

well, this is not a scientific fact column, or truth and fact or something like that-kind-of-blog-post, this is, as always, related to PERSONAL..

mesti korunk pelik kan ngan aku lately, blog spot aku sume2 dah berkarat2 dah, korunk mesti tak enjoy reading right? [errm..alah! berape kerat je yg reading]

well.. korunk kene lah phm, konsep and defini BLOG tu senirik... this is the FREEDOM-OF-SPEECH-ZONE

apekah perasaan anda, apabila kawan anda melabel kan anda sebagai "FRIENDS-ONLY" ?

well, bg aku lah, aku teraser offensive a lil bit, yeah, if we really are FRIENDS, there's no "ONLY" or anything in the next of the word, just FRIENDS alone

maybe korunk tak dapat tangkap lagi, situasi disini ialah, contohnya :

Si A [girl] and Si B [boy] are FRIENDS.

A pernah crush ngan si B, and seems like si B doesn't like it, so, si A setuju that they are FRIENDS, ONLY

but then, seems like, si A je yg kawan si B, but si B, just the one who LAYAN si A, hurm, hurt isn't it? why i say that so? well.. here's the hujah :-

1- Everyday, asyik2 si A je yg mule text ngan si B, well, obviously, si A mmg crush ngan si B tu, well, to know whether we are friends, or is it a crush or love or not, we have to get closer to the subject to determine right? but, si B never ever crossed his mind about her..as if, he never cares.

2- yg paling obvious, Si A neh, rajen la gak, calling2 si B, ye laah, nak borak2, well, si A neh , mmg suke calling2 org, ckp2, borak2, sharing.. hurm, [that what girls do what..] then, what about si B? NEVER

3- Si B neh, suke ckp lepaaas je, tak pikir dah ape perasaan si A, HELLO~ si A ni girl kot, mudah terase, but somehow, kalo si A saket hati setare mane pon, Si B, never nak MINTAK MAAF or, PUJOK, then, terpakselah, si A neh, pujok diri snirik, so that, their so-called FRIENDSHIP neh not ruins.. how tough is si A huh?

4- ok, this is the BEST part, Si A ni, PAHAM amat2 yg si B neh, tidak menyukai dirinya seperti mana dirinya suke pade si B, So si A redha je, jika dy just a friend to si B, at least, si A got a chance to befriend with him... BUT SOMEHOW, as always she reminds herself that she is just a friend to him, she clearly doesn't need, SOMEONE ELSE TO REMIND HER, HER STATUS WITH HIM, and espeacially, NOT FROM HIM..

put yourself, in si A's shoe, [doesn't matter if you a boy or a girl] , then, imagine, how would you feel, if the one who you befriend with, is making a line for you, a line that you will never crossed, or enter, just because, you're JUST a friend to him..?

FRIENDS don't create a line between, FRIENDS dont have to be LABELED, FRIENDS is what we gone through together, and NOT ON ONE SIDE ONLY.

what is it that you know about FRIENDS?

A song that dedicate to me.. how sweet.. :)

When I see your smile

Tears roll down my face I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul

And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

Seasons are changing

And waves are crashing

And stars are falling all for us

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart

Please don't throw that away

Cuz I'm here for you

Please don't walk away and

Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will

Pull my strings just for a thrill

And I know I'll be okay

Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

[to fade]

HEY! I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR MY LONG LOST FRIEND NAMED

RAIHANAH BT ZAMANI

by any chance you knew/know her, or have her address, or her contact number, leave me a msg, your number, and how to contact you, and i will hit you back, thank you

xxxxxxxxxxxxx

oh gosh! suddenly i miss her when looking at all the stuffs she gave to me, how sweet is she, and HOW SWEET AM I still keeping all those stuff? :D

well.. lost contact with her after she was send-out-of/quit the school, Maahad Muhammadi Lilbanat, [yeap, did i ever tell you i'm a maahadian? haha]

i don't know how she ever got out of school, a lot of story i've heard, a lot of crap of stories these people made, and guess what, i don't believe any of those stories, i believe in her, nonun mido yo [it's means "i believe in you" in korean]

well, she might did all those crap that these people are talking about, but, for me, in my eyes, she's just not that girl

she is AWFULLY GENEROUS to me, i always have faith in her, i am always the best to her, i miss her so much

well, i might not know her well enough, but i dont like that i know her from someone else's mouth, people talks, people lies, even though what they were saying are true, somehow, i just need to know it from her, i wont believe it till i see it with my own eyes,hear it with my own ears, from her own mouth.. GOT IT?

say what you want about her, but all i see, she's a sweet girl...she always be..

RAIHANAH, if you happend to read this somewhere, or maybe you were key-in your name in the google search engine, you stumble afront of this page, please, contact me, i miss you like hell, you are the long lost friend that i ever wanted to meet,

JEJAK KASEH, SET US UP! COME ON!!

aku rase BBT season 3 episode 4 lah yg lawak gile di alam semeter!!

especially part when leanord ask Raj why indians cannot eat beef, sheldon was there too :

Leonard : Why don't hindus eat beef?

Raj : We believes Cows are Gods

Sheldon : [object] Not technically, in hinduism.. *bla bla bla bla* are LIKE God..

Raj : [pissed off] DO NOT TELL ME ABOUT MY OWN CULTURE, SHELDON! The mood im in, I'll take you out, I SWEAR TO COW!

hahahahhahaha, gile lawak berguling2 aku atas lantai, or dlm bhse internet nye..ROFL *in case you dont know, Rolling On Floor Laughing*

ok, that's it, hehe, keje korunk skunk, DOWNLOAD LAH BBT..

alkesah..

kawan2 mak aku dtg nak tgk baju2 viet yg , yeah, mak aku jual tu laa..
but then, salah sorg kawan mak aku neh, bwk baby a.k.a bayi beliau, hehe,

*it's ok, keep going*

then, mak aku ajak beliau2 yg terhormat neh, makan malam, si bayi yg gemok chubby cute tuh,telah di hand-kan kepade aku, so that mak si bayi leyh join makan malam bersame tanpe gangguan..

OK, i think i can handle this, so, aku pon dokong la budak tuh,
so far, okay je, kes dy tak nanges, hoho, i guess the kid likes me, heh :P

mak aku soh aku bwk budak tuh, duk bilik aku, bukak econ, kes budak tu panas la konon, or maybe nak tido, then, aku pon turot printah ah
then, keadaan ok je, BUT, disaat aku letak baby tu atas katel, aku nak pegi amek tisu, lap muke dy, dy nges, aku angkat, dokong balik, tepok3 pampers dy, hehe,

bwk dy jln2 dlm bilik aku jap,[eceh,bunyik cam bilik aku besar, haha] then, aku tgk game aku men tadi, tak menang2 lagi [CS, useless BOTS, aku tade je, tak menang2, haha], then, aku pangku adek tuh, aku habeskan jap....MIAHAHAHAHAH

then, budak tuh mcm teruje je tgk CS tuh, *BOOM!* aku bru teringat, CS tu VIOLENCE for kids, hahaha, mongok, then,aku tade idea, aku pon igtkan nak bukak katon kat budak tuh tgk2 tade vid, aku clear kan laptop neh aritu kes ayah aku nak pakai, yg ade, vid budak kene dera n vid ne-yo becoz of you, hahaha

BOTH NOT SUITABLE FOR KIDS!

haha, ape nak jadi ngan aku neh, aku wonder, cne lah time aku darjah 3 aritu, jage si yura tuh, hurrmm

aku kuarkan sume2 teddy bear aku, haha, kasik sume kat dy, soh dy senyap, haha, aku siap2 usap2 rambot dy, aku bru trigt lagi, gaye usap2 aku tadi tuh, mcm aku usap kucem, AYARRKK..

aku yakinkan diri aku, aku leyh handle mende neh, aku boleh jdi mak bile2 mase je, aku YAKEN !

then, aku sombong, tamo keluar bilik, untill mak dy snirik yg masok bilik amek dy senirik, but then, budak nih, mmg dah tak reti nak diam, nges je keje, IT'S UNCONTROLLABLE!

aku step down! SURRENDER!! aku kuar bilik, angkot baby tu in my arms, melangkah gagah menuju mak dy,

haha, ayah aku ckp aku tak reti jge budak, well, in my defence..:

1- budak tuh, tak knal aku, lagipon, muke aku yg berjerawat neh scary amat
2- budak tuh sejuk sgt, or uncomfortable ngan situasi bilik aku
3- hurm..maghrib..maybe budak tuh leyh nampak byk setan2 berkelimpangan dlm bilik aku neh, ish ish ish :(
4- or maybe, my father was right :(

kahkahkahkah!!

I THOUGH I WAS GOOD WITH KIDS/BABIES ? HOW THE HELL I TAKE CARE OF YURA WHEN SHE WAS LITTLE EH?

well...it's been a loooooong time i hadn't hold a baby, hehe

nevermind, i'll get better my self when i get one, heeee :D

can't wait, heheh ;)

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malas nye nak UPDATE :(

yeah, actually i was done watching a movie, The Proposal, it's such a nice movie..

but somehow, i did ran to my room, well, i guess, i need to sleep, but, i just can't

all of sudden. i keep thinking, what am i doing all this time, i keep thinking about him.. OH! how FOOLISH am i!

there's something you should know about girls, how strong they are in your eyes, how high their egoes are, somehow n somewhere in their soul, is WEAKNESS

they are sensitve, emotional, and somehow..they are CLUMSY, yeah, that part goes to me, actually

i was lying on my bed just now, really not preparing to sleep, but, it got me thinking, how am i gonna stop thinking about this? this is too tiring, but somehow, everything i do, remind me of him..

that is just SUCKS!

well... i think i got myself busy enough, yeah, keep me busy, distract me with something else other than him...

so i go for shop, but still, he came across my mind even when i look at someone who wears the same clothe as him,

then, i spend hours, cleaning my dad's office, with all those papers, files and books, BUT STILL, i came across of him, when my bro tell me about his studies in Jordan, well,my bro really remind me of him, well, i dont know which part.. i can't tell myself [what am i thinking, really]

then, i really think this plan is gonna work, SLEEP.... wait up, im not finish....FOR HOURS! i even woke up at 2 p.m this morning,i mean, EVENING [haha, yeah, i'm THAT kinda girl] , BUT SOMEHOW, THAT LIL MEAN CREATURE manage to get into my dreams!

trust me, this is for real, how am i gonna run away from this?? i even dreamt of him at night.. well, mostly he is just a cellphone in my dream [well, i kinda had too much texting, and somehow i manage to dream of him calling me, as it's so real, haha]

what is this about? what is this on my mind?? i can't really tell what is it? CAN YOU?

something just popped in my mind just now as i land my back on that soft bed..

yeah, that's always the answer..well, i manage to handle it very well last time, [yeah, that RUDY guy] and i'm so proud of it, coz now, i'm sure, it was just a CRUSH

but now, i'm not so sure what it is, coz you see, i never had such joy when i am with someone.. to tell u the truth,this is the 1st time,

i even step out from my comfort zone, ready to try something new, with him.. it's quite fun, and i loved it.. he explore me, well, not much, but he kinda lead me to it.. i explore the real me inside, when i am with him, i'll be more, open, i do something i never did , he is such evil! haha, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME? hahaha

i dont even know if this feeling was right, but i SWEAR to you, every single thing i type here, i can feel the burnt in my heart, i can feel it in my chest, i think it's flaming wild fire in there, GREAT, now i have to call the firemen, hehe, kid2

last but not least, HELP ME FIND SOMEONE NEW TO CRUSH ON, coz i swear to god, this man is like a leech on my heart, really hard to get it off,

hurrm... honestly, there's some lil thing inside me, that really wanted me to let him go, but some part of me, WONT LET HIM GO, i kinda like the feeling of liking him , really

normal, isn't it?

I can't melt you down huh? your melting point is too high ,huh?

what you're trying to say is that ; no matter how hard i try, i can never get your heart huh?

well... if i can't MELT you down, let see if i can FIRE you UP,

i BET you'll be FLAMING HOT, and burnt yourself up, or maybe, burn into ashes..

YOU'RE MESSING WITH THE WRONG GIRL, HON

IM CAPABLE OF CRASHING ALL THE BARRIERS THAT ARE IN MY WAY.. ;)

*Sigh*

I admit it, it is too OBVIOUS that i've been trying too hard to make he SEES me, to make he LIKES me, LIKES my STYLE, LIKES me the way I AM, but.. ALL OF SUDDEN, i dont really realize, that, i've been trying to hard to be SOMEONE else, SOMEONE he probably LIKES, someone that is not..ME

Maybe i should take a break..

TAKE A BREAK FROM ALL OF THIS

this thing, is SO TIRING, i'm trying too hard to get his attention, all of sudden, HE NEVER GETS IT, he just dont get it, HE'S TOO INNOCENT, EMPTY, BLURR, or should i say, DUMB?

WHY ON EARTH DID I EVER LIKE HIM AT THE FIRST PLACE??

ENOUGH! I'M SO TIRED!

just let me breathe for just one moment, let me catch my air, let me just think what the best for me for just ONE MOMENT..

LET ME BE ME...